It’s time for some serious real talk: There are nine minutes to go until a phone interview and I’m sitting in my car listening to “Dancing Queen” by ABBA. If that doesn’t scream “SUCCESS,” I don’t know what does. My mom just texted me about an eight pound octopus that escaped down a drain. Fascinating. Octopi are talented. I tried playing Candy Crush for a while, but tragically my five lives lasted less than five minutes, as I could not spread enough Jelly to beat the Jelly Queen. If you think this blog post has sounded ridiculous so far, you need to stop reading because my brain before an interview is like a kid who’s just been set free into a toy store after eating cotton candy, jellybeans, and an ice cream sundae. So here I am, blogging about it.
I’m on edge, but in a good way—I’m excited. I’ve got energy pulsing through my body and I’m glancing over at my phone every 10 seconds, confirming that it is in fact still 3:24 p.m., even though it seems like it has to be 3:30 by now. Here’s what’s silly: I’m excited and I'm happy, but my body clearly thinks that I’m about to have to swim across a moat filled with man-eating crocodiles. That’s the only way I can explain why my hands are shaking with anticipation.
Isn’t it funny that we do this to ourselves? In the moments and seconds leading up to a big event, our bodies go wild with strange sensations and our minds explode with thoughts. If this doesn’t happen to you...well, I feel kinda bad for you. For me, this feeling of excited nervousness and anticipation means that I’m exactly on the right track. It means that I’m following my path and pushing myself to get involved in things that I’m passionate about and that I deeply want to pursue. If I weren’t nervous, I’d know that it’s not something that I really, truly want. I don’t think I’ll ever feel more human than in the five minutes leading up to something like this. Situating yourself right at the edge of your comfort zone is strange and sometimes makes your fingers feel tingly, but it’s good.
The nine minutes are up. It's 3:30.